like the violin

The problem with my life right now is the lack of energy reserve. I used all of my saved energy during the stressful fall semester, and the Christmas break was too short for me to fill it up. So now, I'm always on survival mode when it comes to energy (and therefor also joy and inspiration) - I can gather up enough while sleeping to make it through a normal day, but as soon as something (which could be anything really, it depends on the level of tiredness - anything from doing the dishes or my homework to meeting people to taking a dance class) occurs that requires more energy, I just want to give up and sleep for weeks. Or months.

I saved up energy all week to do a good concert two days ago. Like I said it went well and I'm very happy about that, but now there's no energy left for a whole weekend of dancing. I try not to complain, seeing as I've put this life together myself, but it is so hard for me to say no to things that I want to do (or would have wanted if only I could sleep for about a week first)! But well. There will be other dance camps, with more energy and great dancing.

Hm. I need to get some kind of photographic portfolio. I asked the boyfriend to make one for me, but I feel bad about it now because he really has too much work to do as it is. Oh well, I'll think of something.

Four more weeks in school and then weeks and weeks of rest. I can do it.